The woman the writer encounters has a name, Alice, but she is someone no one else can see. A spirit who traversed the seas to the original C in the days before she became a spirit and met a prince by the sea shore. Both she and the writer believe in light and love but neither Alice says in her infinite wisdom, last throughout life. There is also a unique out-of-body encounter between the kindred spirits that may or may not help the writer, Raju’s alter ego it seems, to help her recover from her faltering love affair.
Alice we discover was burnt at the stake and darkened the skies over C. The meeting between the two was orchestrated by the dark C who feels that his writer daughter needs to be inspired by writing through a muse who has the quality of a shaman, C’s first original daughter. Early on in the book, the narrator walks between a pair of glowing eyes on a misty evening in an out-of-body experience that evokes the ghosts of old cathedral towns. However, that is not initially explained though followed up by an encounter with meds and a collapse. But the hallucinatory world links the reader to Raju’s residency where the writer is there in real time to write and the quest for inspiration may prove frustrating.
The poet-author takes the life of a schoolgirl in Tamil Nadu who grows up to be a rebellious writer in residence lost on campus and deconstructs it so that the familiar story of a bad schoolgirl with rolled socks who finds it hard to relate to her father acquires a haunting unfamiliarity. There is a collapse, meds, the mention of a shrink, and even a night in a luxury hotel which grounds the reader for a while but not for long. Poetry can turn the common inside out as it can take an all too ordinary unrequited love and turn it into drama, an unequal balance between two people that has to be written out of the soul. Poetry and line formations take sudden chunks out of pages making the reader pause as is obviously meant.
There is a uniqueness to the merging of the two Cs spanned by time and distance and underscored by Raju's nuanced language of blue-green hazes that underscores the misty wanderings of her narrative. There is a photograph of Eliot on the stairs to her lonely room and the circularity of his poetry imbues her story with an 'in my end is my beginning' feel as the relationships toss and turn or drop like leaves with the changing seasons. Life, Raju muses, is about drops in one sense or the other and her chapter titles contribute their own lines of verse to the tale.