Fifty-one is an auspicious number for Hindus, but the 51st year of India's Independence has been the nation's darkest hour. Thirty years ago when I became a journalist, I entertained no doubts about India's future. Our political system commanded an awesome legitimacy. Despite the '62 war with China, India was very much a leader of the non-aligned world. The economy was being racked by the second of two terrible droughts, but the Green Revolution was around the corner. Our industrial strategy had not prevented a devaluation of the rupee but it endowed India with a heavy industrial base that was the envy of others. In short, there was much that was wrong and needed to be fixed, but the Nehruvian vision for India was alive and well. We had something to fight for, and something to look forward to. Indians, one American scholar remarked, had a post-dated image of themselves. They could afford to have one because they entertained no doubts about where they and their country were headed.