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The D’Souza Diary

Dominic D'Souza's battle against prejudice, discrimination and ostracism of AIDS and HIV patients in Indian society has not yet been won, says film maker Onir...

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The D’Souza Diary
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Fear and Loathing

Back in the late 1980s, the acronym still freshly evoked that strange, intense fear of the unknown—a biological version of xenophobia. And the knee-jerk response: banishment, ostracism, or their medical variants. It was as good as incarceration for the man they called ‘Goa’s Patient Zero’. This May, we mark 25 years since Dominic D’Souza died. Sadly, we cannot say the stigmatisation brought on by the letters AIDS and HIV has ended. Dominic’s battle against prejudice, discrimination and ostracism of patients in Indian society has not yet been won. Far from it. Just recently, an acquaintance of mine reached out to me seeking help. He had been diagnosed as HIV-positive. He managed somehow to keep it under wraps for a bit but when it was no longer possible to hide it, the discrimination started at his workplace. They didn’t fire him but they made it so difficult for him to survive that he finally resigned. I don’t want to reveal his identity but he’s a creative artist…very sensitive and totally shattered by what’s happened. He desperately needed counselling. That’s the way the cookie crumbles still.

Brain Canker

It’s so stark you can’t miss it. Patients of other terminal illnesses, like cancer, receive a natural compassion from society. In the case of those diagnosed with AIDs, there is only repulsion. As if the physical pain and the mental anguish of imminent death are not enough. I often wondered how two diseases produced such radically opposite reactions, even though each is equally serious. The penny dropped with an analogy: who are the only other victims who, paradoxically, find themselves at the receiving end of prejudice? Victims of rape, of course. I realised the answer lay in our society’s deeply conflicted perceptions of sex. Repressed desire at the personal end, turned to a cultivated disdain and stigma at the social level. Being infected with the HIV virus is an indication of sexual transgression. Perversely, so is rape often read as such. So the victim becomes the outcast.

Letter and Spirit

Of course, there’s one area where positive changes have indeed taken place. When D’Souza was battling prejudice in the late ’80s and early ’90s—after being quarantined in a tuberculosis ward for 64 days with an HIV diagnosis—there were few laws to protect him against such injustice. Over the years, however, that lacuna has been partly filled. Last month, Parliament passed the Human Immunodeficiency Virus (HIV) and Acquired Immune Deficiency Syndrome (AIDS) Prevention and Control Bill, 2017—so we at least have a legal promise that equal rights will be ensured for those infected with AIDS and HIV.  It criminalises various forms of discrimination and permits sufferers the right to confidentiality. To quote from the Bill, it prohibits “denial, termination, discontinuation or unfair treatment with regard to employment, education establishments, healthcare services, residing or renting property or standing for public or private office”. Such legal support is very important, even if not sufficient. As we have seen in the case of my acquaintance who faced it recently, unless the stigma itself goes, society will find ways of working through the loopholes. (In his case, they couldn’t legally terminate his employment but they socially boycotted him).

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Illustration by Sajith Kumar
The Lantern-Lit

And how can the stigma go? Through understanding…no other way. Maybe cinema helps. As for My Brother Nikhil (my 2005 film on the life of D’Souza), it’s more the case that the subject found me instead of the other way around. I was hosting a documentary talk show produced by Shekhar Kapur—Men’s Only, with a ‘gay Mumbai’ sort of theme—when I came across D’Souza’s story. It was so powerful that it lingered and I couldn’t shake it off. I had been working on another script, which was supposed to be my first film, but I was now consumed by the urge to make this movie.

It was difficult to find producers who dismissed it as being ‘too ahead of its time’. Until finally Sanjay Suri came forward to produce it. That proved fruitful, as later we jointly formed our film production company, Anticlock Films.

I Am, Therefore…

My next film, which will release on June 30, is the third part of the trilogy which began with My Brother Nikhil. The second was I Am. The kind of struggle for empowerment that drove D’Souza is still relevant and my films are inspired by the strength of these voices of dissent. It’s a little scary that core debates about the social side of HIV and AIDS do not figure prominently in the government agenda today. The whole notion of men having sex with men has been rendered unacceptable all over again. There is an atmosphere of moral policing, a permeating holier-than-thou attitude which announces that thought itself will be censored. As filmmakers, we are impacted of course. Recall only how Sanjay Leela Bhansali was roughed up or how Lipstick Under My Burkha was banned.


The writer is a film maker